Ten years later

16 Sep

On this day, ten years ago, I got baptised.

I guess I feel a bit like this is a significant wedding anniversary – the day I said, ‘I do’, forever.

I meant it, at the time, even though I obviously had no idea what was going to happen. I’ve spent some of the last week thinking about that – about everything I didn’t know; about how I imagined the future back then. What did I think I’d be doing in ten years’ time? I can’t really remember but I’m pretty sure it didn’t involve anything that I’m now doing, or anything that’s happened (apart from going to uni. That was rather predictable).

The one idea I had about the future was that in ten years’ time I wanted to still be a Christian. Well, here I am, by grace. Which is amazing. It’s been a decade of love and joy and pain and insane adventures. Thank you – you really are a very good shepherd, and it would have been very different, boring and pointless without you. I can’t imagine who I’d have become.

Anyway, the first thing I ever read and liked in the Bible was this classic Psalm (athough I didn’t know it was a classic!). Ten years ago it read like a nice promise. Now it reads like fact.

You have searched me, LORD,
and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
you, LORD, know it completely.
You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.

Where could I lose him?

I’ve been to the far side of the sea – met him there.

Down into darkness – met him there.

Broke my body – met him there.

And tomorrow I’ll wake up and meet him there.

So, happy anniversary. Here’s to the next ten.


One Response to “Ten years later”

  1. Susan in TX 18/09/2011 at 10:23 pm #

    Happy anniversary to you!

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